I lost the plot.

This past year has had me all over the place emotionally, mentally, physically.. And it has taken a toll. 

I’ve heard this same story a lot from other photographers. A sick parent, a breakup, a move, a financial rough-patch. It doesn’t have to take much to pull us from a place that feels like we’re thriving and in the flow with work and life, to a place where we’re totally lost. Being a creative is not simple.. 

It requires your whole heart to be in it, and lately mine hasn’t been.

Maybe you noticed, maybe you didn’t. It’s somewhat easy to think the people we follow on social media have their shit together, but in this little brain of mine it’s been turmoil. I lost my confidence somewhere over the last year. In not just my work, but in my ability to run a competitive business. I’ve been second-guessing myself, what to post, when to post, do I even know what’s current and relevant to gen-z’s? Have I priced myself out of the market?

And always: is this the last year that I’ll get bookings?

But the fight has always been there. I’ve always been wanting more.. It’s a gift and a curse I was born with I think. To always believe that even when things are not going how I wanted or expected, that I can get back into that flow that I once found.

If I did it before, surely I can do it again.

But now things are different. I know more than I did when I was 22. There are also bigger expectations put on me - by myself, but also by my clients and brands I am so grateful to be able to work with.

This is the most vulnerable I’ve been in awhile, and maybe it’s because I can finally see things more clearly. 

It’s time for me to refocus. What are my values? What drives me? How do I want my life and business to feel in 6 months and a year from now? 

These are the exact same questions I tell the photographers I mentor to consider when they’re just starting out, or ready to take the next step. And it’s time I take my own advice.

So humbly, I’m recommitting. To trying, just a little bit harder today. And tomorrow. And the next. 

Even when things suck. Even when my dog is sick, or my house is a mess, or I have a mountain of emails to answer.

Because even though I have been showing up quietly every single day…it’s time to find that drive again. 

If you’re down to join me, whether you’re recommitting to your business or just want to cheer me on from the sidelines.. I’d love to spend more time with you in community. 

Feel free to join me over in my Facebook group. I’ll be posting there weekly, and I hope you’ll come share your own stories, struggles & wins.

Much love,

LC